“There are holes up there a man can’t see until he’s in them,” Malcolm said softly. “I was reminded of that.”
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Later, when the lamp was lit and the house had quieted, Malcolm opened his notebook and wrote: On the twenty-third day of April, in the year of our Lord 1878, I walked the moor north of our glen and saw lights such as are often spoken of but seldom trusted. They appeared over ground that gave way when tested, and where they did not appear, the earth held firm. I cannot say whether this was a trick of gas and fatigue, or whether the old tales of will-o’-the-wisps contain some truth as warning rather than lure.
He paused, then added: Jean’s song came to mind: “The ground is never the same twice.” Perhaps the lights are only the land’s way of saying the same.
He closed the book. From the next room came the low murmur of voices: Ewan and his younger brother speaking of wages, ships, and passage prices. Beyond the window the moor lay black and quiet.
Malcolm still did not know whether his sons should go or stay. But he understood something he had not the day before. A family, like a traveller on the moor, could be undone by trusting too much in old footing. A path that had held for generations might
fail in a single season if the water beneath it changed course. Another way — less familiar and less proud — might prove safer.
By morning he had no final answer. He rose early and stepped outside. Mist still lay over the moor, though the eastern sky had turned pale gold. For a moment he thought he saw, far off, one last small light hanging near the place where the ground had broken under him. Then it vanished.
When he went back in, Ewan was already at the table.
“Well?” his son asked quietly.
Malcolm looked at the letters, the notebooks, the piled lives of those who had gone and those who had stayed. “I still don’t know whether a MacGregor belongs more to these hills than to whatever waits beyond them,” he said. “But I know this: no man should stay only because his father stayed, and no man should leave only because others have gone. A road is not made safe by habit.” He rested his hand on the notebook. “If you or Gregor go, you’ll go with my blessing. If you stay, you’ll stay with it too. But whichever path you choose, choose it with your eyes open. The ground is never the same twice.”
Outside, the wind moved softly over the heather. Somewhere beyond sight, water shifted under peat, reshaping the earth grain by grain.